Loving Our Inner Doggy

This is something I wrote about our dog. We had to say goodbye today.


I have heard more than one sermon about how our relationship with Christ should be like a dog's to his master. The way  dogs are completely loyal and unquestioning.  A dog's way of greeting his master with enthusiasm and the desire a dog has to alway be with his master. 

Nice. If you like that sort of thing.

I have loads of respect for the nobility and integrity of dogs, but frankly their goody-two-shoe ways have always annoyed me. If you come to our house Randy will probably show off with our dog, Riley. Randy tells him to sit and stay, then he throws bits of food around the room. Riley will sit there until Randy says, "OK!" Then the dog runs and snarfs up the food  like it was the last food on earth and comes back for more 

Here is what I would say to Riley if it would make a difference: "Get some dignity, it is only scraps of  whole wheat toast. Just go lay down and act like you don't care. Seriously!" 

However, a couple of days ago Riley did something that pretty accurately illustrates my relationship with Christ. We took him to the park for a long walk. Because he is an old and trustworthy dog, we let him off his leash as we took a trail through the woods. Randy and I strolled along with Riley trotting ahead. The waning sun dappled the path before us as the birds sang their evening song. Ahh, perfect evening. Just me, my man, and our faithful dog.

About that time a deer crashes across the path in front of us. Riley gave a quick glance toward us as if to say, "Holy cow! Did you see that! I'm going to go wrestle that thing to the ground and devour it!" (This is the same dog who, as a puppy, chased airplanes.) He took off toward the direction of  his prey.

For a while we could hear him in the woods, smashing the undergrowth as he sniffed frantically around. We called and whistled for him with the assurance that he would come soon. He always does. Time passed and we couldn't hear him any more. I got a little worried. We had seen a baby copperhead earlier. I got more worried. We kept calling and whistling. Nothing.

We left the path and went out to the road, still calling. Even Randy's calls were developing an anxious edge. In time we saw Riley coming down the road. He was not dragging a deer in his jaws so I imagine he was disappointed. He came to us a little sheepishly, knowing he had messed up, but of course I greeted him with hugs and pats which he accepted gratefully.

The sun was setting as we walked toward the car. Riley, who is 12 years old, couldn't keep up and started to limp so I had to carry him most of the way back.He was heavy, stinky and probably covered with ticks but I carried him anyway. 

Riley is an obedient and faithful dog. The worst thing he ever does is sneak up on the couch when we aren't home and then he feels bad about it. One day something big and amazing came across his path and he couldn't resist. He took off into danger toward something he had no chance of obtaining. 

Thanks, dog, for being just like me. 

fuzzy memory

Way back in a very early post I marveled at how the writers of memoirs remembered things in such detail. Things like conversations and what they were wearing at the time. I am not convinced that people can really recall things as vividly as they can write them, but it is amazing what comes back when you start to put it down.

When I was very small, younger than three, we lived in a house at the edge of our little town. It was literally on the edge, a wheat field butted up against our backyard. We had a huge swing set that my dad made. It probably wasn't as big as it is in my mind, but he used tractor seats for the glider. Imagine getting clobbered by one of those

 I think we had one of those sandboxes in an old tire. I have a memory of the backs of my legs getting pinched by cracked rubber.

My dad doesn't play a starring role in my early memories but I clearly remember one afternoon when he called to me from across the yard, I could see he had something cupped in his hands. He spread his thumbs apart and I could see tiny little rabbit ears. I was delighted and instantly had to hold it.Of course I squeezed too hard and the baby bunny screamed like only a baby bunny can. My dad took it back, and I guess he let it go in the wheat field.

That is pretty much what I remember and I think it is mostly true.

Thanksgiving Thanks

Thanksgiving hasn't always been my favorite holiday. It was just a nice day with a good food that came before Christmas. That was the celebration that counted, what with Baby Jesus and the wise men and all those lovely presents.

I did have one problem with Christmas, and that was thanks giving. I would open my gifts,which were always pretty great because that was something my step mom was good at, and then I would just sit there. Oh, I said thank you but I would mumble it like some shy foreign exchange student who wasn't sure of the language. I'm pretty sure I was just embarrassed, but it must have come off bratty. My parents would sigh and say something about how hard they try.

Meanwhile my little sister would be bouncing around the tree, dumping out her stocking, shrieking with unabashed joy over each item no matter what it was. She bubbled her joy all over the place and I wished I was more like her. The personality differences exist to this day,though I am proud to report that I am much less churlish and have developed some social graces.

So now I am a Thanksgiving girl. There's nothing like an entire day of cooking,eating, laughing and loving to make you feel grateful. Even missing the people who can't be there makes you glad that you have them to miss.

This Thanksgiving morning I offered up my mumbled, dutiful thanks to a God who knew I was trying and doing my best. Tonight, at the end of a long, lovely time with kids and grandkids, I will fall into bed and give my Father all the thanks my heart can give.

Gloria

She was a woman who was good at doing what she was good at doing. I say that meaning she didn't waste time. She didn't waste time doing things she didn't care about or that she didn't have a knack for. She was good at singing, so she did it all the time. She was good at decorating so she made things beautiful every chance she got. She was good at knowing what people needed to hear, so she listened and thought and considered, then let you know what she thought.

She hated school, small talk, and Jack Nicholson.

One of many favorite Gloria stories:

She was at the library where I work, bemoaning the fact that she couldn't find any books to read that didn't have a lot of sex and cussing. A sweet lady over heard her and suggested she read Janette Oke.

Her response?

"No, not nearly enough sex or cussing!"

Love you Gloria! So glad you were in my life and I will remember you every time I put a shopping cart where it belongs or arrange my stuff in groups of three.

in memory of flossie: an old xanga post

Flossie: A Cautionary Tale

The first thing you will notice about Flossie is that she is fat. You may have seen fatter cats, but only on the front of funny birthday cards with a joke about too much cake. Next you will notice that she is out of proportion. Her head is too small and her tail too short for such a large cat, she was never meant to be this big. She balances her furry rolls on improbably skinny legs. The third thing you will notice is that she is an attractive tortoise shell, as in: "She has such a pretty face!".However, like all of us, Flossie has a story, a past that will help you to understand her better.

Flossie is a foundling. One early July evening, I was out for a stroll when a tiny scrap of fur came skittering in front of me, frantically crying, obviously lost. I did what you do at the sound of an infant cry, I scooped her up, cradling her in one hand. She was that tiny. Her eyes were open, her umbilicus healed, but she surely had a mother somewhere close by. I have to admit my search was feeble. I knocked on a few doors and poked around a nearby office building but no one knew where the kitten belonged. I folded my hands around the bitty thing and held her against my chest for the walk home.

We were relieved when she ate and drank because we weren’t real sure how she would do. She seemed to adjust well with one weird exception. She was adopted by a burgundy colored afghan. We would find her snuggled up to it, kneading it with her paws and nursing! I finally threw it in the corner of the living room so she would know where to find her "mother" whenever she needed her.

Sadly, Flossie’s surrogate mother did not provide her with the emotional support she needed to overcome her early abandonment. Flossie became a floozy. She started hanging out with the neighborhood bad boy, a dirty white tom cat that had obviously been around the block a time or two. We tried to tell her that she was too good for him, but she wouldn’t listen. Late nights of wild animal behavior and before her first birthday she was pregnant.

She carried her kittens well, and had an uneventful pregnancy. Late one night she gave birth to four kittens in Mia’s bed. Mia was in the bed at the time. As surprised as Mia was, no one was more surprised than Flossie. She let out a yowl that seemed to say "Look what just popped out!" Our dog, Riley, who up to this point was Flossie’s best friend, was amazed as well. He went on to become a favorite uncle, but that comes up in another story.

We had the little mother fixed as soon as she had her kittens weaned. Most of the kittens went to a farm where one of her daughters has been the mother of countless litters of kittens. Riley County, Kansas is littered with tortoise shell kittens. Flossie has aged as well as can be expected. A very needy cat, she craves affection as much as Meow Mix. She carries herself with the demeanor of someone who did all her living when she was just young.